I Couldn't Possibly

Being unemployed affords one a lot of time to do things. In my previous life, I always found myself struggling to do things I really needed to do. I'd say to myself 'Jeez I really have to clean my room/wash dishes/pay bills, but I'm so tired from working so many hours at my tedious job I just cant' be bothered right now.' That's not a problem for someone who is unemployed.

OR IS IT?

Here's a funny thing about having endless amounts of unstructured time. IT IS PARALYZING. Today I had a list of things to accomplish. They included:

1. finishing an art project
2. working on an art project I just started
3. applying for jobs
4. submitting work to several exhibitions and festivals
5. reading some articles in the New Yorker

When I woke up this "morning", I had best intentions to do all or some of these tasks. But then I thought, 'Why do them today when I can do them tomorrow? Or the next day? Or the next day?' And the answer is, there is absolutely no reason to do things today versus tomorrow. I have the same number of unfilled hours every single day. The rub is -- and I think you can see where this is going -- you never wind up doing those things at all! So despite the copious amounts of time with which to FINALLY achieve the tedious tasks of life, you wind up doing less than you would if you had a job taking up 55 hrs of your week.

Don't worry though. In the past 24 hours, I was able to do a few noteworthy things.

1. I received a gchat from Zara which contained a link to a real viral video winner. Definitely one of the best I've seen recently.


2. I made a mixtape! I was thinking it'd be cool to actually make a tape tape. And decorate it and whatever. But now that that's on my list of things to do, well, it surely won't be done. Download it HERE

3. I made bolognese sauce. It contains veal, pork AND pancetta. It's pretty good. I want to make homemade tagliatelle to go with it, but we'll see. Unfortunately pasta sauces (especially with meat) don't photograph well unless you are a professional. Despite my having received "training" as a photographer for 4 consecutive years, I succeeded in absorbing none of that information. Here is kind of what I want you to picture when you think of my bolognese:


4. I took a long walk to get Banh Mi on Tuesday. It was a very brisk walk.